Saturday, November 24, 2007

And again???

July 2007 was an emotional month for me. July 20 marked the death of Isaac and I had been asked to speak and give my testimony at chuch on July 21 and 22. I was so honored and could not have thought of a better way to honor my son. This testimony can be heard by going to www.mclanechurch.org and going to the podcasts and chosing THS Kristy Bolte. It was a very difficult thing to do but also very healing. It has been an amazing journey.

But that weekend I wasn't feeling quite right and it was a feeling that I found all too familiar. I knew it wasn't the stress. I was pregnant again! AAAAAAAAHHH! But I decided not to tell a soul until after the weekend was over. I took a test and it confirmed what I already knew. I was not sure how my husband was going to react, but to my delight he was overjoyed. We would be having another baby this April!

We decided we woudl keep it to ourselves for a while just to enjoy a special secret between us. But at 9 weeks I began bleeding and had to go to the hospital for an ultrasound. We ended up telling Howard's mom so that she coudl watch the boys while we went to get checked. As I have stated, my feelings toward ultrasounds are very different and I was in agony over this one. The first tech could not get a heartbeat so she had to call in a second tech who found it right away. they sent the tests to my doctor who confirmed that everything looked just fine. We went home and breathed a sigh of relief.

The pregnancy progressed as the others had and we were beginning to feel comfortable that things with this baby would be just fine.

1 comment:

The Tellinghuisen Family said...

I am feverishly reading your blog, and finding your story very inspiring and similar to mine in some ways... We have a 10 month old son who was born with microcephaly and lissencephaly. We were told it was not genetic (some random fluke). I am now 21 weeks pregnant again and at our ultrasound yesterday we were told this baby's head is measuring small, too :( I despise ultrasounds, too! Nothing is for sure with this baby, we can only hope that this baby will still be healthy as we hoped. After being told this would never happen again, and now being warned that it may...we are just devastated. And like your doctor said - if it wasn't for our past pregnancy, he wouldn't be worried about this baby's small head.

Finding your blog and reading about your family has been a blessing. I am finding strength in your strength.