Doctor appointment today...

This afternoon I have a doctor's appointment with my doctor in Erie. I haven't talked to him since this rollercoaster ride began. He will go over the results from Magee with us. I am looking forward to seeing him in some ways...I know he will be more supportive, but I also dread doctor appointments now. I feel like everyone just looks at me and feels sorry for us. Doctors are trained to be scientists and so they are likely to give you the worst outcome and little hope. I just can't have anyone stealing my hope right now. So I am anxious today. I hope it goes well and he is optimistic. I want to be realistic about the situation but at the same time I do not believe that there is EVER a situation without hope! I will let you all know how it goes!