Due to sheer exhaustion I don't have much time to post, but wanted to come and ask for your prayers for myself and for Hope. Yesterday was a frustrating day as I began having some concerning postpartum issues and ended up in the hospital all afternoon and evening. I am now on bed rest and hoping to be on the mend.
Hope is still doing well. She is up to 7lb 2 oz as of Thursday's doctor appointment. We head to Pittsburgh again on Monday for a dermatology appointment and to get her stitch from her biopsy removed. She has developed two more TINY little sore spots on her leg and though I am still so thankful that she is healing from her other blisters and so far things are looking to be on the mild side, my heart is troubled. I am trying so hard to take this one day at a time but I feel like I am suffocating here, just waiting for the next "issue" to arise.
I cried the entire time waiting for her well child visit because doctor appointments now make me nuts. I am trying hard to lean on God and trust in His plan, but I know that sometimes his plan is wrought with pain and right now my heart can't really handle anymore pain. I don't want to sound like a whiner here...I know how blessed I am, really I do and Hope brings so much joy to our family. It hurts me though to see her hurt. I would like to just be able to enjoy my family for a while without looming medical issues. Each time she coughs or hiccups I wonder if the blisters have developed in her esophagus and digestive tract. If she sleeps longer than two hours I panic and wake her. This fear that is taking over my heart is not from God and yet I have allowed it to creep in.
Please continue to pray for our family as we walk through this uncertain time. We know Who the author of this story is and that he is working here, may we just have the strength and endurance to rest in that knowledge.
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