Thursday, January 10, 2008

Prayer does make a difference...

Lately I have been kind of lax with my prayer life...I have been feeling that my prayers are ridiculously redundant and I have been tired of repeating myself. I know that when I don't know how to pray that the Holy Spirit intevenes and prays for me so I just was leaving it up to the Holy Spirit, but obviously we need to continue to pray. I am amazed at my patient husband who has been putting up with my crazy self. I sometimes get so wrapped up in myself and what is going on with the baby inside of me that I let my responsiblility to Howard and the boys slide. They have been very patient but they deserve so much more. I am trying each day to be a little better. I have been pretty stressed and have had quite a bit of cramping and contractions lately so I really need to take it easy and enjoy each day, so if you stop over and my house is not as clean as normal, I am trying hard to prioritize.

I am constantly amazed at the amount of people who are praying for us and send us little gifts of love each week. Baby Happy is going to be the warmest baby ever as he has received several little blankies and my friend Lisa even made him a little silky like my other boys have had and it is perfect. I am so thankful that others are thinking of our little boy.

He is becoming more active and I am feeling him under my ribcage now, which as every woman who has had a baby knows is sometimes pretty uncomfortable. We had a doctor appointment Monday with my doctor here in Erie and I am measuring just fine, but haven't gained any weight in over a month but he isn't too worried about it yet. The baby's heart sounded fine and I had my glucose test and results should be back any day. He was encouraging and said that we would not truly know anything until the baby is born and we will just take it one step at a time. I still dread our next Pittsburgh appointment...it will likely be the last and this sonogram should tell whether or not his head has stopped growing. I am still praying for healing. Some days I just am in kind of a fog, it all seems so unreal.

7 comments:

susan said...

Hello, I came across your blog from another. I am so touched by your faith and struggles. Please know that I will be praying for you and your family and, of course, Happy. What a great name! Prayers & Blessings to your family from Amarillo, TX

Laurie said...

Hi,

I won't go into how I found you today but I know God led me to your site here. First of all, let me agree with you that prayer does make a difference. I have seen it to be so true in these past two months. I am letting you know I've been here today reading back through your story with Isaac and though I am late, I am so sorry for you losing him and for the pain that is still so fresh. I want you to know that I will be praying for you and for Happy from this day forward. I will pray for peace and grace for you and your family, for your fears and anxieties to be replaced with Gods mercy and hope, and for baby Happy to be healed. I don't say the last to build false hopes, but I believe that God can heal Happy and I have to ask Him to do that. I'll pray that you rest and not go into early labor, and not worry about being neat and tidy right now. I will pray for the appts. that you dread going to, and I can sure see why. And days of being in a fog are a normal part of this frightening path you are on right now. God understands your heart and I know He is okay with that too. One step at a time is so right, and I ask Him to carry you if it gets too hard to walk. Baby
Happy is in Gods hands as he is safe inside of you and I ask God to correct the things that need His healing touch. God does not make mistakes but He sure can correct them.

Blessings and Hugs,
Laurie in Ca.

Anonymous said...

Kristy,

I'm glad you got the blankie, because I have been wanting to tell you this so badly!

When I was at the post office mailing it, the postal guy behind the counter was very friendly and chatty, and he noticed it was addressed to "Happy Bolte". He looked at me kind of funny and asked if that was a real name. I told him it was a baby gift, and that my friends were calling the baby they were expecting Happy. He just smiled really big, and said that that was great.

I finished a minute later, he put the packages behind him, and as I was about to walk away he smiled again and said "Happy. I like that."

Just wanted to tell you that your little guy brought a smile to a complete stranger's face without even being there.

Love,
Lisa

Kenzie Stanfield said...

Kristy-

Thank you for posting on our blog... it has let me know about your journey and all that you face ahead as well. I will be praying for you- for peace, for healing (hopefully this side of Heaven, but if not, definitely with Christ), for courage and for faith. I am so sorry about your loss of Issac... I'm sure you have searched many times wondering "why is this happening again"- when I prayed for you today I kept wondering what it would be like to have to walk a similar journey to ours again. Please remember that people are praying for you, that Christ loves and died for you, and somehow He will give you all you need. (Just a reminder! : ) )

"He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power." Isaiah 40:29

Blessings and prayers,
Kenzie

Christa said...

Know you are in my prayers every day. I can't imagine the stress. I hope your appointment in Pittsburgh goes much better than your past expieriences there. I can't remember what my perinatologists name was that I saw at LEWC at 18 weeks, but he was from Magee's and he was just very cold and rude to me as well. I will continue to pray for little Happy! I miss you all at MOPS!!! Let me know if there are any specific prayer requests. I find myself praying more now that I am part of the living room furniture. Ha!

Val said...

Hi Kristy,

I just want you to know that spending the morning with you on Tuesday was so nice! Luke and Ben are so full of fun! (even if we did have a little trouble sharing toys! That's to be expected. You should have seen my Luke at the first playdate at our house. What a nightmare! LOL)

Anyhow, I am constantly amazed at what a wonderful, thoughtful, and caring mom you are to your boys. All of your children are blessed to have you and Howard as their parents. Those boys, Isaac and Happy included, know your great love for them. Continue to show them Christ's love because you are definitely letting your light shine. It is obvious to me because it shines through your children!

God bless you and Happy today. When you feel lost in the fog, lean on Him! He will show you the way.

Hugs and prayers!

Chrissy said...

Thank you for leaving me a comment which brought me to your blog. I have read the entire thing today and am touched by your journey w/ both Isaac and now Happy. Please know that I have added you to my blog "prayer requests" and to my personal prayers as well. If we could possibly get in contact w/ each other via email or phone that would be great. I didn't see a personal email link in your about me section so please feel free to email me (jane7doe7@aol.com). I will respond w/ my phone number as well. With you coming to Pittsburgh so frequently you seem to be the closest to me than any other families that are on this same path. I am blessed that you found me and know that it was God that brought you to my blog. Praying for you and Happy tonight...and looking forward to hearing from you soon! Take care and sleep easy! Love and prayers, Chrissy