Better days are ahead...

Well, first I must say thank you all for your kind words and prayers. I do so appreciate each and every one. Some days I just feel so bogged down by everything. Yesterday was just a really yucky day for me. I am easily overwhelmed when I have a lot on my plate and this coming week I have a lot on my plate. I should probably have given more thought to my schedule and probably should have been more gentle with myself but things just got away from me.

Tonight we have small group and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed about that as Howard won't be here. So I am on my own with getting things ready and caring for the kids at the same time. I am spoiled to have such a great husband so when I am on my own it throws me for a loop. I will share with you about what he is up to in another post.

Anyhow, then this weekend I am going to teach in the early childhood ministry in our church an lead worship for the first time since having Asher. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE doing this. It is one of my very favorite things to do, but I am out of practice and have A LOT to memorize for the lesson.

Monday I am having a Tupperware party, which I am also looking forward to. I actually wasn't even sure Tupperware existed anymore but my friend Tiffany started selling it so I am excited to see what is new with Tupperware and to get some free stuff while helping her out.

Tuesday is the biggie. Tuesday I am speaking at the Federated Church MOPS group. I really love doing this kind of thing and have done several since having Isaac, just basically sharing our story and how God has worked amazing things through all of it. It is just hard to do. To stand in front of a group of people and share your heart. I do it here but I get to sit behind a computer. I am not face to face with anyone. Tuesday I also go back to working. I will be working Tuesday from 7 - 11 pm. I am anxious to get back to work because we need the income but everything seems like it is happening all at once!

So I guess I am asking for your prayers. Life is beginning to get back to normal and I am not quite sure I am ready so please pray for God to bring peace to my heart in knowing that none of this means I am forgetting or leaving this part of my life behind. Pray for God to bring beauty from these ashes.

It is funny how this grief thing seems to be more like a crazy roller coaster ride than anything else. Some days I feel great and am so full of joy and peace and other days I come crashing down and am weary and sad. It makes me feel nuts sometimes. :-) I will have several great days only to be followed by some really yucky ones. Just when I think I am coming out of this, I sink back down.

Psalm 88:9my eyes are dim with grief. I call to you, O LORD, every day; I spread out my hands to you.

Psalm 31:9Be merciful to me, O LORD, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief.