It seems that each time I post something containing my true feelings and being honest it is suggested that I seek counseling. I am not necessarily offended by that but you are assuming that I haven't already. You do not know that is the case. I very much appreciate everyone's wanting to look out for me and I promise I am being well cared for and have many people to talk to. I was just trying to share my thoughts. Counseling doesn't change reality. Yes it is healthy to talk to someone and counseling doesn't make you less of a Christian nor is it anything to be ashamed of, but despite having someone to talk to, these feelings still exist. I know that it is ok to feel like this. I have lost two children. One three years ago and one three short months ago. This is all still new and raw for me. I am dealing with things and giving them to God, I just have bad days sometimes.
I am taking care of myself and am being well cared for and looked after by friends and family. I just want you all to know that. I am so grateful that so many of you are so genuinely concerned for me and I want you to know that I am handling this in a healthy manner and there is no need to worry. It is possible to be in counseling and still have yucky feelings and sad days. I have many outlets for my anger, frustration, sadness and joy. This blog is just one. An amazing one, but it is still just a part. It is a place for me to freely be able to express things I have difficulty expressing verbally. That in and of itself is healing for me. Thank you all for continuing to follow my blog and for your honest and sincere concerns... I am so grateful so many of you love me enough to be concerned!! Thank you!
17 hours ago