Saturday, December 1, 2007


Last night Howard took us to dinner when he got home and we had a really nice dinner at the Olive Garden which the boys LOVE! It was good to get out of the house and it did make me feel a bit better. It is tough though to go out because I am obviously pregnant by now and of course people always gush over the pregannt lady asking when I am due and such. It is great to have people excited for us but at the same time I am troubled about what is happening. I pray that God delivers us from this situation and when we go to our next ultrasound on December 18th they give us some hope!

I am super angry this morning. Life is so unjust that sometimes it is difficult to see how a loving God can allow those who love him and live according to his rule suffer so much. We took the boys to see Santa this morning at a club my dad belongs to. They had a great time and were so excited to get a gift! I haven't really been in the holiday spirit lately and this was good for us. I may even get the tree up tomorrow. As we were leaving the club though there were some women standing outside the door smoking. The one girl was standing there talking about how she is due to have her baby in January but they are worried that the baby may come early because she is already having contractions and went in to the hospital last night. She says this as she puffs her cigarette. My blood began to boil. Today I am asking God to help me to understand why some of us who try to make every right decision for our unborn child, who give up their own body for nine months and live healthier than ever before for the benefit of our babies can be allowed to suffer loss and worry of babies riddled with health issues while some mothers just could care less and they smoke, do drugs and abuse their bodies have completely worry free pregnancies and will never know this kind of loss. The injustice of that is beyond my comprehension today.


Anonymous said...

Dear Happy,

You have no idea yet how very loved you are. Your mommy & daddy spend every minute thinking about you, praying for you, and loving you. You and your family have so many people thinking about you all the time.

While no one can understand for even a second the circumstances that surround your coming into this world, there is no question that you are a gift. You are special, you are wonderful, and you are loved.

Your mommy and daddy are incredible people, and you are so lucky to be their son.

Anonymous said...


Don't forget about Job. He was a man who feared God and shunned evil, yet his life was met with disaster. He lost his weatlth, his children, and his health. God proposed many questions to Job, questions to which Job had no answers. God was saying to Job that Job could not expect to know why he (Job), a righteous man, must suffer. Job only had to be content to leave that knowledge to God and simply to endure his sufferings patiently in faith. Please keep your faith!

I will continue to pray for you and your family.