Saturday, March 28, 2009

(Part 2)

My appointment was for 9:30 and we got there shortly before that. I signed in and we waited in the huge waiting room for what seemed like eternity, and was almost an hour. They called my name and we went back. This is kind of when I flipped the switch and just checked out. I have developed a pretty good knack for that unfortunately. I just climbed up on the table laid back and held my breath. The ultrasound technician was great. She was very kind and compassionate and she talked through the WHOLE thing so it was not so awkward and tense. She did some measurements and then went to do the baby's head, but she was looking up facing us and she could not get head measurements with the baby in that position. We did get to see her sweet eyes though and even the lenses in the eyes.

She moved down to the feet. This baby girl had her legs crossed for the ENTIRE scan! Let's hope that modesty stays with her! She measured legs and feet, but couldn't get the one leg because she had them crossed, so she moved on to the abdomen, measuring her belly, kidneys, bladder, heart. Everything was measuring perfectly. She then moved to her head. The baby had changed positions and we were now able to measure the head and the structures of the brain. Each measurement was SPOT ON! I began to breathe a little. She then measured the baby's arms. There is a chance that this baby girl could have monkey arms! Her arm measurements were two weeks ahead! They were the only measurement that varied from dates so it may just be a poor measurement or it may just be that she has long arms.

The doctor then came bouncing in. She was smiling and sweet. She checked a few things and assured me that the baby looked no less than perfect. She was measuring just as she should in EVERY way! She was such a kind doctor and I am so thankful that God answered each request even down to the greatest ultrasound tech and doctors. She then told me that the doctor we had been working with in genetics still wanted to see me so I would have to wait a little longer. Honestly, nothing could really have bothered me at that moment. I was ok with waiting all day now that I knew my baby girl was ok. I cannot even explain the emotions and relief I felt lying on that table.

We were then sent to wait in the genetics waiting room, which if you have followed since our diagnosis with Asher, you will recall that I liken that room to Hell. It is a room filled with uncertainty, tension, crying moms, and dads who look like deer in the headlights carrying their own sadness while trying to be strong for their partner. UGH! We sat there and a few couples walked out in tears and my heart just broke for them. I remember being there. I remember wanting to run as fast as I could away from that hospital. I was sitting and rejoicing in the good news I had received and these families were being given the news that would likely force them to run toward God or as far away from Him as they could. I am still praying for these families. My heart truly breaks for them, but knows that God will comfort them if they allow Him.

A few moments later, my doctor opened the door and said "Mrs. Bolte, come on back" I followed him to his office and before we even sat down he said, "I am pleased to say I have NOTHING but good news for you! You really gave me a scare when you emailed, but really, she could not be measuring more spot on." He reviewed all of her measurements with me and said that the measurements they got on Monday must have been miscalculated. He also asked that I come back maybe one more time before the end of pregnancy, not because he expected anything to go wrong, but just for reassurance one more time. He scheduled me for an appointment in May and then said, "I am so happy for you and if you have any questions before we meet again, you have my info, but I expect this baby will be a normal healthy child."

As I checked out the woman muttered under her breath "well we will have to remove that abnormal flag on the chart now." I replied with "aww...that is a good feeling". She smiled, validated my parking and sent me on my way! YAY! Honestly I wanted to dance out of the hospital I was so elated! We headed toward home, again only making a little error in directions and stopped for a celebratory lunch. It was great! Then we stopped at the Grove City outlets and did a little shopping for little miss! It was fun and so refreshing to breathe and fully embrace and enjoy the new thing God is doing leaving the fear behind.

We got home shortly before six o'clock and Howard and I jumped in the car to go get the boys. They had a great day with great friends and I am so thankful that I never had to worry about them for even a moment, knowing they were in the hands of some of the best mommies I know. After picking them up we stopped and grabbed a quick dinner and then headed to Home Depot and purchased the paint which is already on the walls of her room!

I still had a hard time getting to sleep last night though, partly because I was still reeling with excitement from the amazing day God had blessed me with, and partly because I was wrestling with the idea of God's goodness. After hearing our good news, I have had many people respond with, "God is good!" He is that is absolutely a true statement and I really did feel it yesterday. Yet, I can't help but thinking that sometimes we make God's goodness conditional. Of course I wanted the report I got yesterday, but even if I had gotten different news, God would still be good. He was good when he blessed us with Asher and He was good when He called him home. God really is good all the time, even in the tough stuff. I can't even begin to fathom why sometimes we have to endure extreme pain and suffering but even in that God is good and I am thankful that he spared me the heartache that I could have encountered yesterday.

I am beyond grateful that God chose to bless me the way he did yesterday, with all of the right people, all of your prayers, good news, and an all around great day. I am really honestly still trying to put it all into words, but I am so thankful for this opportunity to breathe and enjoy, and part of me can't help but wonder if God had to bring me through this "scare" to show me how to embrace this blessing and truly enjoy her.

So that was my day in a nutshell. I am feeling beyond blessed and am so looking forward to seeing this new baby girl. The painting has begun and the preparing has resumed. We do not know what tomorrow brings, but for today we are going to embrace this good news and soak it in!

41 comments:

Val, Mike and Brax said...

show us the room when you're done painting!!!!!!
i'm so happy for you :-)

Charles said...

I am so relieved for you and glad you finally got to do some shopping and painting for your baby girl!!!! Huge, Gage's Mom, Mary

my3sons said...

I could not be happier for you! That is such great news. I am glad you decided to go for the scan. It put your heart at ease much sooner! I can't wait to see the little ones room all painted! What fun! And the girl clothes! I have 3sons, so am a bit envious when people are having little girls! Katie

Kelly @ The Beauty of Sufficient Grace said...

Praising God with you....so happy for you all...and you are so right...God is good when He gives, God is good when He takes away...In the storm, and the sunshine...He is good in all of it. Today, we praise Him for the giving!!!!!!

KingsLittleBlessings said...

What a "Happy" day! :) You're right, God IS good all the time, it's just so hard to say it when things are tough. But, it's good to know it all the time. So happy for you all, and I hope that you can relax and really enjoy this pregnancy with your baby girl!!

Michelle said...

you may disagree with me, but i happen to believe that your precious daughter truly did have something wrong with her when you got those bad measurements back. everything else was fine, yet they mismeasured the one thing that pointed towards her having what your precious sons with Jesus had?

i, personally, think not.

call me crazy, but i believe that GOD HEALED YOUR BABY GIRL. i believe that HE GAVE YOU A MIRACLE. maybe i'm wrong, but i believe that God heard your pleas and the pleas of all of us storming the gates of Heaven on her behalf and healed her little body.

maybe it's just me... but i believe your daughter truly has been touched by the hand of God. :-)

- michelle

Amy B said...

GOD is GOOD. I have been praying for you. I am so happy for you and your family.

our family said...

Yeah thanks for sharing the wonderful details of your day with us. So glad to hear that God has been faithful and is watching over your precious girl. Can't wait to see pictures of that girly room. You guys (or Howard are fast painters. My Dh needs to get moving on painting my baby girl's room.
Hugs
Rachel in PA

Laurie in Ca. said...

Kristy,

All I can think of after these past few days is God is good all the time. He held my heart captive in prayer for you and your baby girl. When Chrissy told me the news in the morning, I felt my heart smile. It is the only way I can express how my heart released its heavy burden, a smile I could feel inside. And bringing you through the scare to really let go and embrace and enjoy her, I could see Him in this for sure. Each and every gift is from Him and He wants us to be blessed. I am so happy for you and the excitement that has been released in your hearts and in your home. Praising Him so much today. I love you guys. Have fun this weekend!!

Love and Hugs, Laurie

2feetonearth1inthestars said...

I truly am crying in relief. And I cried when I read the original everything is good message. Praise the Lord. I'm so so happy for you!

Rest For Weary Step Moms said...

Woooooo Hooooo Yes!!! I'm soooo happy and I knew that this little baby girl was just fine. I could just feel it and I knew that God was doing a "New Thing". You've made my day, it's time to prepare for this 'little stinker' to join her brothers. It's funny because even when you were unsure, I was absolutely sure that everything was alright...Thank you Jesus...

Christy said...

I loved reading this! You're so right that GOD is good all the time. Can I just tell you that I'm so over the top thrilled that this time he's showing his goodness through what will be a beautiful baby girl?

I hope once all the painting is done and her room is put together you'll share pictures of her absolutely girly room! :)

Becky said...

Great news! Truly great news! When my youngest was pregnant following her miscarriage, the doctor thought the baby had amniotic bands. What a relief to have a followup ultrasound and know that was not the case.

Have fun picking out her name, painting the nursery, and thinking pink!

Trennia said...

I'm praising the LORD JESUS for HIS goodness to you and your family.

Susan said...

Praise God! We've been in that genetics room at Magee...it is like hell. I'm so glad you got a good report!

Millie said...

Yeah!! I am SO happy for you!! I have, unfortunately, been in the genetic counselers office too, and I agree with your opinions about that room. Thank God you will never need that room again! Enjoy the pink! :). Little girl things are so fun.
Millie and Colin-HLHS

AmandaC said...

I am so happy for you!!
We were just shopping in Grove City on Tuesday and I was ooing and ahhing over all of the cute girl things in the Carters store. I'm glad you had such a wonderful day!

malette-foreveryoung said...

I am glad that you got good news and that you did some shopping for you little girl.
Keep living for today and try not worry about tomorrow.
I will keep praying for you and your family.
Praying in ND

Kim said...

YAY!!!!!!! Praise the Lord. Can't wait to see your "happy"- your baby girl.

Laura said...

I am so thankful for news full of hope and peace! Keep painting and buying hairbows!

xoxo

Trish said...

Kristy,

I cried reading your posts. FInally joyful tears filled my eyes!

I wish I could give you a big hug and rub the tummy of "Happy Girl"!

with love,
Trish

Mashel said...

Kristy,
You are so right, God is good all the time, but that is so hard to say, (and I don't think would have ever said that to you if the results were bad.....) I know with the twins and our situation, that even though we are faced with the possibility of losing them, that no matter what happens, God is good all the time. I don't know if that does happen, if I will be able to say those words right away, but eventually I am sure I will. I do have to praise God for this one though, Kristy, I am so, so happy that your precious little girl is healthy. What a blessing she will be to your family.

C said...

Hi, I have been a reader for a long time. I am pregnant with my third child. I lost my first, but my second is a healthy eighteen month old boy. You have inspired me to soak in the good news I have so far and not dwell on what tomorrow may hold with this entry of yours. Thanks. Pray we will too have a safe pregnancy with a healthy baby.

Lea said...

So happy for you. Amazing news....

xo

Corie said...

Thank you for all the details. What a day! A day of excitement and relief! Hugs to you!

Erika said...

Just wonderful, wonderful news!!!! And I agree- even when news is not so good, God is always good. (((hugs)))

Cristi said...

Oh your words certainly bring back memories of the same feelings and more. For your good report - PRAISE THE LORD.

Kim (marygracesummons.blogspot.com) said...

Praising Him for it all!
Love you,
Kim

Erika said...

Praise the Lord! That is such wonderful news! I am so happy for you!

Anonymous said...

I've been lurking for awhile and just wanted to say how relieved I am for you!! Can't wait to see the nursery!

Sherylynn said...

PRAISE GOD!

libby @ ninesandquines said...

YEAH!!!! SOOOOOOOO happy for you :-)

wildwestwaldos said...

Congratulations on the good news! We will continue to pray for your family, and watch as God works.

connie said...

It sounds like such a wonderful day, and a great way for God to show you He hears your pleas, and ours on your behalf. I love you, and pray your mind returns many times until she is born, to these reassurances.

Ang said...

Oh my goodness..that post just brought me to tears! That is so awesome..that you can get some peace and contentment and enjoy these weeks ahead. You are right God is Good all the time. Even in the hard times ((hugs))

Christa @ Quintooples said...

So excited!!!!! I have been wanting to comment, but someting (or someone!) has been interupting me!

YEAY! Time for painting!

Beth said...

I am so happy for you!!! Praising God!

Elena said...

HOORAY!!!!

Aunt of 14 said...

I heard the good news from Amanda, had to come over and hear it from your own words. I feel truly relieved along with you! So happy for your family!! :)

Kirsten said...

What a blessing to read Part 2!!! An answer to prayer indeed. God is good - all the time.

Love and hugs!

Blessed Mom of 8 said...

Praising God with you Kristi!

Yes, God is good all of the time!

Hugs and love,
Jill