Uncertainty

I first want to thank you all for praying for us. I wish I could come here and tell you that the paint has been purchased and that the nursery is under way. That is not however the truth. I am having a hard time putting my emotions and thoughts into words so I will just give you the facts.

Our ultrasound was ok. Her heartrate was good, she was moving all around and just as stubborn as ever...this time the only picture we got was a leg so maybe by the time it is all said and done we will have one of each body part. :-)

The doctors are a little concerned though. Her head, while it is still growing has slowed a little and is now in the 6th percentile. He assured us that this could be perfectly normal and for anyone else he would likely not say anything and would just measure again in a few weeks, but because of our history he wants me to be monitored. So we go back in two weeks to measure again hoping for more growth.

I can't say I am not terrified and I am frustrated. I am trying very hard not to let fear and doubt take up residence where hope and peace have been fighting to take the forefront. Please if you feel led, pray for us and for our baby, we know God has this all under control and I am trying my best just to give it to Him as there is NOTHING I can do aside from getting my nose back into my Bible and praying.