As I have admitted, some days it is difficult for me to even function. Part of me wants to stay in bed and stay just where I am and avoid moving forward. As I have been reading in my Bible I am reminded that we are called to "walk by faith" Often times we come to a place in the road where there is a giant roadblock, an enormous tree has fallen across our path and we have a choice. We can stand there and wait for God to move the roadblock, or we can forge on ahead despite the difficulty maneuvering around the roadblock. We expect to see these barriers removed from before us so that we may continue on. It seems to me that this is not necessarily walking by faith. Sometimes God does move mountains and make our paths clear, yet often times he doesn't. Walking by faith means we forge on ahead as if there were no obstacle at all.
Sometimes my obstacle seems so much bigger than I can physically handle, and yet I will continue onward walking by faith and not by sight. This is not to say that I will not stumble but it is my intention to keep on going. It can be so frustrating when God doesn't move those barriers for us, and yet I have to trust that God in His infinite wisdom is able to see the picture more clearly than my limited vision will allow.
God is answering our prayers one by one. I have heard it said that "God is seldom early, but He is NEVER late." I am relying on this. So I believe he is making our path straight but allowing some obstacles to stand in our way to encourage us to strengthen our faith.
It is hard to explain but though I have had more frustration and anger with God than ever before, I continue to grow closer to Him. That is not to say that I like what is going on right now. I still struggle very much to understand, but He is teaching me so much. Just like our earthly parents, we can get mad at them and be frustrated when we don't get what we want, but our love for them will only grow deeper as we see and learn how they are preparing us for what is ahead.
Please continue to pray for Happy and for our family!
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