Overwhelmed...

It has been quite a day thus far. Ben was of course sick and so he slept with us last night, which basically means I didn't sleep. This morning his fever is much better but he is still so cranky and clingy. He will NOT let me put him down! I thought I was going to have a breakdown earlier, I needed to get a shower, get a few chores done and care for the kids and Ben would not let me do anything but hold him. Finally I just gave up and sat with him and he fell asleep. He is sleeping now...I transferred him to his bed successfully! Hopefully some additional rest will help him recover faster. Just as I layed him down our phone rang.

This phone call was one of the biggest blessings to me! It was the NICU nurse who was on duty the day Isaac died. She was so kind and so much wiser than us. She knew what we needed to do to enjoy our last moments with our son and I am forever grateful to her. She had found out at the hospital yesterday what was going on with us and was calling to see if we wanted her there on Monday! Can you believe that! The thought had crossed my mind hoping that she would be there, but she is going to go out of her way to be there with us. What an amazing lady! She will never know how much she has touched our lives.

At this point, I have fed Luke lunch, picked up toys, showered and am working on laundry so I am feeling better about life for the moment. My next chore is to sweep the floors. Dirty floors are one of my biggest pet peeves! Then I will be getting ready to head in to the doctor's office for my sonogram...

PLEASE PLEASE pray that the sonogram looks good and that we get sent right home! I am struggling with knowing this is all going to happen Monday but I know that God has it under control. I am just praying he will grant me these last few days with Happy. My appointment is at 4 p.m.