Sunday, February 24, 2008

We certainly received our miracle.

First let me say thank you so much for your faithful prayer as we have traveled this journey. I hope that you will continue to pray as it is far from being over. As you all know we welcomed Asher Joseph Bolte into the world on February 22nd. He weighed 4lb 1oz and was 16 inches long. He was perfect! We were able to have 35 precious minutes with him and they were 35 of the most amazing moments of my life. This is certainly not a path I would have chosen for myself but I have to say that February 22nd is a day in which I felt more love than I have ever felt in my entire life. Asher blessed this earth with more love than I had ever hoped to feel.

It seemed that nothing went as planned for us and Thursday night I was incredibly frustrated. I can see however looking back that God's hand was in this EVERY step of the way. I was anxious for the sonogram appointment and irritated that we had to go yet again to the hospital, but as we all know, God's timing is perfect and had we not done these things all signs point to the fact that we would have lost Asher over the weekend before birth due to a deteriorating umbilical cord and increased fluid. His heart was gradually slowing down.

We prayed that all of our decisions would be made clear and they certainly were. I have not one regret. Asher was cared for by wonderful doctors and nurses. We were especially blessed to have the amazing nurse I spoke of earlier. Having her there during delivery made me so much more at ease in such a difficult situation. I cannot even express with words what it meant that she cared for our little guy. I trusted her completely.

We were completely enveloped and surrounded in the most amazing love of God shown through all of the people who shared Asher's life with us. I could not have asked for things to go more perfectly. I am certain that Asher felt nothing but love in his short time here on earth and though my heart is aching now that I am home without him, I know he is in the arms of his Heavenly Father and he will never have to know the pain of living on earth.

I first must say that Asher was the blessing that God promised and he brought an amazing grace and love to this earth. I know that God has a plan and I fully trust that he is working his plan for good in our lives. I also must say though that leaving the hospital today empty handed and broken hearted yet again leaves me crushed. I do know God has a plan but I certainly don't like it much right now. He gave us such and amazing gift and I am thankful for the time He gave us but somehow it wasn't enough. My arms ache to hold him again and my body aches from having him ripped away from me. Please continue to pray for our family as we try to grieve our precious Asher and continue to lean on our Heavenly Father!

27 comments:

Just little ole me said...

So grateful you were able to have 35 minutes, as little as they were. I am glad God gave you all a chance to meet him and love on him. My prayers are with your family as you continue on in your journey.

Anonymous said...

We too are so grateful you all were able to have that precious time with dear Asher. There are no words but 'His compassions fail not'. We will continue to pray for you Kristy and your family.

Love
Emi

Alicia said...

Will continue to hold you and your family up in prayer....I am so thankful that you got some precious time and memories with Asher.

mandy said...

We wish we could take away your pain. We will continue praying for your family. Our entire church is praying for you and many people asked about your family this morning. Thanks for sharing this journey with us.
Love,
Jerry, Mandy, Josh, Lindsey, and Victoria

Dawni said...

Just wanting you to know you are in our thoughts and prayers.
The Camp's

TNKerry said...

There are no words that I can say to take away your pain. You are so very gracious and strong - love follows a person such as yourself. Red heads always make me smile and I find it perfect that a little boy named Happy had red hair. Many prayers for you and your family.

Paul said...

Isaiah 41:10-11 -- Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
God will help in this time of great pain. We wish we could have been there to see Asher. I bet he was beautiful. If you need anything please know we are only a phone call away.You,Howard,Luke and Ben will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Love
Paul,Lisa, and Dominic

The Adoption Of William said...

What a beautiful little guy. I am glad you had such precious time with him. We will be praying for your heart, and that the Lord gives you peace.

Blessings and Love,

William's Mom

Christa said...

Kristy...He is absoutley beautiful. It is wonderful that you got to spend time with him, and that Ben and Luke got the chance to hold him and love him. I can't imagine the grief, but please know that I am praying for your comfort. What a wonderful promise for a beautiful reunion someday.

Anonymous said...

He's beautiful!! What a cute little man! I am so thankful that you were able to have that precious time with him. I know your heart aches to see him again but thankfully we have that Promise.
Our continued prayers are with all of you.
Chris, Amanda and Alex Card

Emily said...

As soon as the screen popped up, I was taken aback by how absolutely perfect and gorgeous little Asher was and continues to be. How precious! What a little dream come true. Thank you, oh thank you from the bottom of my heart, for letting me see his beautiful face today. He is breathtaking. How amazing to know that your womb was a vessel for such a perfect little boy of grace to make his way to Heaven for all of eternity. How HAPPY Asher must be this afternoon. I hope Miller Grace hugs him tight for me. ;)

I am praying you through this unspeakably difficult days to come and I am but an email or phone call away if there is anything at all I can do. (502)515-3360

mary40 said...

I am praying for you and your family.
I said an extra for you at church today.
Malette in ND

Anonymous said...

I am so thankful to God that His timing IS perfect! What a blessing to have time with your precious boy! Although not enough time here on earth, just think of eternity with him! Asher was able to go from your loving womb, to your loving arms and right into our heavenly Father's loving arms!

My prayers will be with you and your family as you mourn for him not here with you, but thanking God for taking him where he will never suffer! What an Awesome thought is that!

Little Asher and your family has touched so many! What an inspiration you are! Your life and love are serving such a purpose in Him! May you always feel God's grace, peace, strength and love! God Bless You!

Anonymous said...

I can't begin to know the pain that you and Howard are going through at this time, but I do know that Asher was so blessed to have the both of you for his parents.

Thinking of and praying for you always.

love claire

Anonymous said...

I am so thankful for the 35 minutes that Asher was able to give to you and your family...I am thankful that Asher had 35 minutes to recieve an abundance of love and affection from a truly amazing family. I will continue to lift your family up in prayer...I pray that God will continue to shower you with His love and grace. God bless you all.

Trisha Jurgemeyer
San Diego, Ca

laughing out loud said...

What a beautiful account of Asher's life. I am so glad that you are a peace, and I will continue to lift you up as this journey continues.

APril

Colleen said...

Theres really nothing to say except that we love you all and if there is anything that we can do to make your life better right now, please don't hesitate.

Anonymous said...

I have been praying for you and your precious family and will continue. What a blessing your little Happy boy was. Laurie in State College

Rebecca said...

Hugs... I'll keep praying. I'm glad for the time you had with your beautiful baby.

Rebecca

Lisa said...

Kristy & Howard,

I have been thinking of you and all your boys non-stop this past week. I am truly at a loss for words, I am just so devastated for you & in awe of you at the same time.

Asher was born to the perfect parents, the perfect family. No one could have brought him the love you both have, no one could have valued him as you have.

You are in my thoughts and prayers,
Lisa

Anonymous said...

Asher is absolutely beautiful.

Elizabeth

Catherine said...

Your story is an incredible one to read and, I imagine, live. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Kenzie Stanfield said...

Bolte Family-

We are continuing to pray for you... our stories are so similar in that the Lord's hand was so clearly evident in each and every moment we spent. Again, something we would have never wished or asked for, and yet, so thankful that in those moments that could have been so excruciating and terrifying, they were full of purpose and peace.

I know, as you said, that this is far from over and there is so many things ahead of you... just know that I will be faithfully praying for each of you.

His sweet little face is absolutely beautiful and I LOVE the pictures that you posted. He is precious!

Love and praying,
Kenzie

"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine." Isaiah 43:1 (verse we claimed for Maddox)

Mama10EE said...

Krisy and Family,

Continuing to pray hard for your family at this very difficult time. You chose such a beautiful name for your son, and I know that he is making God happy in Heaven. I can't imagine your grief, but I am praying that God's arms will wrap around you, Howard, Luke, and Ben at this time. Isaac was surely waiting on his little brother at the gates of Heaven on the 22nd. God bless you.

Jennifer in WV

Anonymous said...

oh wow. look at that beautiful little face . God does work in mysterious ways and although this time is impossibly difficult you do have to be so thankful for Gods plan that allowed you to have those precious 35 minutes with your son...If it werent for that sonogram you would have lost him before you ever got to meet one another. I will continue to pray for your family to find peace and healing...

Elisha-Alberta

Melissa Dovel said...

Kristy,
I praise the Lord with you that you had some time with your precious son. You are right he is perfect. I have nothing to offer for comfort other than the Lord. He is our healer- I will pray that he unfolds His timing in perfect measure for your family. I will continue to pray for you as a sister in the Lord for peace and joy for the life you have in front of you. I speak a blessing into your aching arms- I pray that you remember every second that you had with Asher here on earth. As I read your comments I had to smile and agree with the most important part of this journey. You do have a promise that means more to you than most others- that your reunion in heaven will be filled more joy than we know as possible. Praying for you and your family.

In His Love,
Melissa

David and Cassie said...

I will continue to pray for your beautiful family. You are so wonderful!