Thursday, April 17, 2008

Clarification

Thank you all for your support and for rallying around me in my time of need. I just want to be clear that I am not in any way angry at anyone for anything they posted and I want your comments to be just as authentic as what I am writing and it is ok that we have differing opinions on some things. I just wanted to be sure that I made clear that I am doing OK. I am just grieving a tremendous loss. I have some days that are good and some that are bad and I know as time rolls on I will have many more good than bad. I am actually grateful that so many of you are so concerned for me. The thing is for many of you all you know is what I write. So if I write a post when I am really down you don't see me to know that was just a down moment. So I guess the purpose of my last post was just to let you all know that most of the time I am doing ok I really am. I am loving on and caring for my boys as only I can. I love you all for loving me enough to be concerned. I just may not always agree! Please continue to read and pray.

On a lighter note, I am going to get my hair done today!!!!!!!! This is always something I look very forward to. My mother in law is coming over to watch the boys through naptime and I get to go sit and let someone else take care of me while I read a book! Yea! (the book I am reading is "Searching for God Knows What" by Donald Miller) We supposed to have two chapters read by tonight's small group so I better get on it! I don't get too much time to read things aside from Chicka Chicka Boom Boom! :-) And many days my Bible reading comes from the Beginners Bible. Well I better get going so I can get the boys settled in and lunch cleaned up before I go!

Again thank you all for continuing to lift me up! I will write more tonight, as I am feeling better and better and seeing God more clearly at times.

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am glad to hear that today is a lil better for you. I pray that it might continue tomorrow. and let me just say that you have FOUR of the most precious boys that anyone could ask for. And for them to have you as their mommy, they are blessed. You are an amazing person. And I am speaking from about 17 years experience of knowing you. :o) hugs to you!
love ya
Suzie

Kim (marygracesummons.blogspot.com) said...

Hi Kristy,
And I want to clarify when I say "ignorant" people I do not mean stupid people. I mean just not knowledgeable of how it feels. Seems like you are so like me, gotta clarify things....I rethink everything and do not want to hurt anyone so I have to "clarify" all of the time:)
Have a wonderful day that you so deserve. You are precious! Especially in His sight.
With love,
Kim

The VW's said...

Glad that you can take some time for YOU today, getting your hair done! I just got mine done yesterday and always enjoy that time away, even if it's only a few times a year! :) So, hope you enjoyed yourself and I hope you have a wonderful day! Thinking of you and praying for you!

valerie said...

Kristy~

You DEFINITELY have a right to have the feelings you are having! You are a loving mother to four boys and are missing two of them terribly! I appreciate your honesty and I'm glad that so many are here to support and uplift you. There will always be some who say the wrong things. (I've even worried that I've done it a few times!) Keep being true to your feelings and please don't hesitate to post the good, the bad and the ugly! God is using you in a mighty way through this blog!! I know that you draw your strength from Him and it's such a beautiful thing to watch. I continue to lift you to Him each day in prayer! Enjoy your time getting your hair done! Nothing lifts my spirits like a new 'do!!

With much love,
Valerie

Anonymous said...

Open forum = open commenting.

You ask for honestly, so you can't get angry with the "unexpected" results.

You might want to consider that some of the "less than desirable" remarks are actually meant in good will.

Seek help if you are that down... It really can't hurt and it's not an admission of failure.

You need to heal.

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Yvette said...

Kristy,

I am so glad you are having a better day! Oh I understand the excitement of getting your hair done and reading a book, I look forward to that "alone time" every 6 weeks. I also understand all the emotions you are feeling, all of us who have lost babies do sweet friend, so you're not alone. Just keep taking it one day at a time!

Love, Yvette
www.tristanasher.blogspot.com

Laurie said...

Have a wonderful time away in "grown-up land" today Kristy. You have earned this time soooooooo much.I love you girl and am continuing to pray you through each day. Keep being yourself, you are truly a beautiful girl, inside and out. Your "new do" will just be an extra boost!

Laurie in Ca.

Sheryl said...

Maybe you could post a picture of your hair and open it up for comments! (just kidding)

Don't feel like you need to explain yourself to any of us!

Sheryl

Hilary said...

Please know I think of you often and am still praying for you! I appreciate your honesty and am so glad you have such a great support system. I pray your days are filled with peace, love and comfort.

Yours in Christ,
Hilary

sumi said...
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sumi said...

I deleted my previous comment but I just wanted to say:

HUGS, Kirsty, I love your heart and I think you have expressed yourself perfectly clearly.

So Blessed said...

Kristy, I am praying for you each day...whether they are good days or not so good days...and that time will help bring gentle healing to your hurting heart. You are held tenderly by our heavenly Father and are in the thoughts and prayers of so many people.

Corie O'Brien said...

I understand the ups and downs of grief. Thank you for being honest. I continue to pray for your family on the foggy path of grief. The ups the downs..the highs and the lows. He is walking with you!

Anonymous said...

I am so glad to hear that you made time for a little "you time". Makes me want to find some too. LOL
I understand you feeling the need to clarify, as I would have felt the same. At the same time, though, I don't think that "clarifying" is what this blog is all about, right? You have FOUR precious boys and you have every right to have a bad day now and then as you grieve for the two that are no longer here. There are very few people that can say they know exactly how you're truly feeling.
I have been so uplifted by your steadfast faith and willingness to look for the plan God has for you in all of this. You are truly an inspiration.
Hugs to you,
Amanda