Monday, April 14, 2008

Please Pray

I am having a very difficult time today. I can't even put into words right now how I feel, but let's just say I am overwhelmed in many ways with grief, anxiety, frustration, saddness, lonliness, etc. Please pray for this fog to lift as I cannot even see clearly right now.

35 comments:

Cindy Ring said...

Kristy,
I justed wanted to let you know that I will be (and have been) praying for you. I try to fathom what you must be feeling and know I can't, but want to let you know that I think of you often and check your blog daily to see how you are. I hope you can be comforted today.

Cindy

Kristie said...

I just lifted you up in prayer.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweights them all.

18-For we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Megan said...

Thinking of you and praying for you, Kristy. I hope you find some of the peace you deserve today.

Anonymous said...

praying for you, especially today.
danita

valerie said...

Praying that there will be bright spots on even your darkest days. You were in my thoughts all weekend! :) Much love coming your way from our house to yours!

Laura said...

Praying today for some relief - relief from the constant exhaustion, relief from the gut-wrenching heartache, temporary relief from mommy duty, relief from utter despair. May you feel God's peace upon you today.

Anonymous said...

Continuing to pray daily for you.
You are loved!

laura said...

Kristy, I have been following your journey since before Asher made his earthly arrival and heavenly departure. I have my own story to share with you sometime but today is not the day. I am getting ready to do school pickup and felt the need to "check on you" and saw your message. I am praying for you and please know that as bad as it gets, it gets better, the pain will not always be this bad, someday your heart will fill with pride over your four boys, not break thinking of the two not here with you. I know it is "white knuckle time", just hang on, we are out here for you!

Anonymous said...

Dear Kristy,
I think of you and pray for you often. May God's incredible love and peace overwhelm you right now!!!! Love, MELANIE

Anonymous said...

Kristy, you did an awesome job yesterday! Luke did too...he was so cute up there singing his heart out and doing all the motions. =] I am praying for you today, Beth Pamer

Anonymous said...

Praying for you as always, I pray that you are lifted up as this blanket of fog is removed from your shoulders.
karen

Jessica mommy to Alex/ RTS said...

You have really been on my heart all weekend, I felt something might be wrong. I am lifting you up in prayier right now. I pray for peace to saturate you in this very moment.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you. May you feel His loving arms around you during this time of need.

Laurie said...

Praying for you Kristy. This has to be the hardest time for you, trying to move forward as all of the emotions pull you back. I will keep you in my prayers and ask the Lord to gently lift the fog that surrounds you and give you rest and peace. This road is so full of ups and downs as I read others who are walking it with you, some ahead, some behind, and some right where you are. I pray they can encourage you with their experiences as only they know how to do. I will just keep praying for you. I love you and the Lord will bring you through. I am so sorry Kristy.

Love, Laurie in Ca.

Suzie said...

Praying for you even more than before. Please know that you will make it through this. And I will do anything I can to help you. One day at a time... Hoping that the prayers lift you up in your time of need. Love ya!

Anonymous said...

Kristy,
I will be praying for you. You have been on my mind the past few days. Just take one day at time, and know that there are those around you who care.
Melissa Robertson

Katy said...

Praying for God's arms to lift you up with hope and love....

Cheryl F. said...

Kristy,

Each day I see a dandelion I think of you and what you have endored. Each person grieves differently and you have been through so much. There will be peaks and valleys as you know, but don't be hard on yourself. I am glad you have family and friends to rely on. I will remember you in my prayers that he lifts you up in your times of struggle.
Cheryl F
Jacksboro, TN
www.whattonameher.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

Continuing to pray that God fills you with His joy in the midst of your sorrow.

"The joy of the Lord will be my strength"

Yvette said...

Kristy,

I am so sorry you are having a difficult day today sweet friend. I pray for you every day but will be praying extra hard for you today and in the days ahead as I certainly understand the waves of emotions that can come so unexpectedly.

Love, Yvette
www.tristanasher.blogspot.com

Jane-Jane said...

Praying for you!

Sheila said...

Dear 'Happy's Mom'
I have visited your BLOG before and never left a comment. I read your comment on [Jacob's BLOG] and I knew I had to reach out to you. I wish I had something to say to make it all better. I wish that there were something I could do to take away your pain... helpless I sit before my computer screen on the day of my oldest son's birthday and I feel guilty that you have lost not one but two sons. I think that is more than any Mother should be asked to suffer. When I was a teenager I babysat for a lady named Sandy who taught me at church. One day from my backyard I could see her son Troy pacing back and forth along the ditch carrying irrigation water on our property... I yelled, Troy what are you doing? He replied something that sounded like, my lion fell in the ditch... when I realized what he meant was, his little brother Ryan fell in the ditch, I ran as fast as I could to shut off the flow of water... I screamed for help, We alerted everyone in the neighborhood and many of my friends. Ryan's lifeless body was found under a culvert by my friend Kelly. Troy had terrible nightmares about his little brother I am sure that he somehow felt responsible for his brother's death although he was not at fault. Two months later Troy was hit and killed by a car crossing the street in front of the church. I remember how Sandy cried for her boys... my heart 'hurt' for her then, and it 'hurts' for YOU now, even though I do not know you personally. May the Lord hold you as you suffer this trial.
Sheila, NV

Anonymous said...

I visit your blog several times a day and pray for you each time. I'm sorry that the fog is over you today. I wish I could do something more to help. Please know that you are loved and held up in prayer by thousands that you will never meet. I hope that tomorrow is a better day! Lisa in NC

Anonymous said...

I have been following your story for a long time here and on cafemom. I just want you to know that I am thinking of you ever day and today I said a special prayer for you. I am so sorry for your loss. Nancy

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you several times each day. I pray that you have peace and rest today.

So Blessed said...

Praying for you, Kristy.

Melissa Dovel said...

Kristy,

As I check in (btw the last few comments ive posted never showed up) TODAY is almost over. Today was a hard day and its almost gone. I pray right now that sometime today you felt a release. I can only pray for peace. I can only pray for wisdom to ask for the right things at the right times. I would never suggest that you seek any way to medicate your way out of this place. I do pray for wisdom to get what you need to help your slef. Your body needs to heal along with your mind and Iknow the heart is just expected to somehow conform. I always feel like im acting like a know it all but I hope you know my comments well enough to know that I say it all in His love. I also want you to know that I share Issac and Asher A LOT:) Perhaps this will bring a smile or maybe just a shrug. I am going to a new church and I met a lady who we basicaly exchanged hello's and that were both stay at home mommy's to 3 children. I commented that our home was perfectly full with our 3- Her eyes filled with tears as she told me about her son who lived for 6mo and never came home from the hospital. With out knowing you and Issac and Asher I would have backed off not knowing what at all to say and instead we ended up in a 30 min. conversation about her baby boy and she thanked me for talking about him and not being afraid to say things and to ask questions and to even laugh a lil through tears. You have taught me how important it is for moms who have had children taken from them to honnor them for the life they had and the impact they made. You are loved deeply and I pray that your fog is lifted so that you can begin to seek the things that will make life managble in the right time.

I hope you know I am 1 of your biggest prayer warriors!
Melissa Dovel

Sheryl said...

I by no means can begin to understand the way you are feeling but through my own "despair" I'm asking God to burden me with the needs of others. You are one of those that I will commit to pray for. Praying God's peace.

Sheryl

sumi said...

A big hug from me...may tomorrow be a better day, and may the Lord light a candle in your darkness.

~Sumi

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog for quite awhile, but have never posted before. I'm praying for you today that you find some peace. It's been a little over a year since I lost my little boy (T18). I've been having some really rough days lately too. Thank you so much for having your blog. It has really helped me many times....especially "My New Normal". It's been a long journey...yes, it's been sad, but never for a moment do I regret my decision to give my son a chance. Oh, how I miss my little angel baby Christian. Sometimes I wonder how I'll make it though another day. I realize that I really don't have a choice. I've got to keep on going for my six other little ones.

Thank you again for sharing baby Happy with us. What a beautiful little boy.

Jeanne

Chrissy said...

Praying!

Pete, Alison and Charlie said...

Thinking of you Kristy, and sending you lots of love. Hoping today's a better day. XXX

ajc4ever said...

You have been on my mind and heart a lot recently, and I have been praying for you. I will continue to do so.

Angela

Rebecca said...

I'm reading this very "late" (Tuesday morning), but I will pray.

By the way, I saw several dandelions in my "travels" this past weekend and thought of Asher each time. :)

Hugs to you...

Anonymous said...

Hey Kristy,
It's the 15th. and I am praying that God will give you everything you need to deal with whatever you must face today. You are always in my thoughts and prayer.
You are loved!