Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Still struggling

I wish I could say today has been a better day, it hasn't really. I still feel the same only today I decided to tackle all of the "piles of paper junk" that have been cluttering my house since we got a shut off notice from National Fuel. It seems in the chaos I just forgot to pay it. My organization has been lacking so I distracted myself today with that.

I thank you all for your kind words and prayers as I continue on this journey. I certainly am not feeling worthy of them at this time but covet them anyway. I just am so frustrated and overwhelmed. I will share more when the time is right. Thanks for praying in the meantime.

11 comments:

Corinne said...

I'm still praying for you. My heart breaks for everytime I think about you living here without your precious babies. Praying for God's peace to envelope you today.

Corie said...

Kristy,
Thank you for your shear honesty of how you are feeling. You are so "normal". I still have a hard time focusing and organizing. I really was a multi-tasker before this, although I don't remember that me anymore. It is challenging too get comfortable into this new "normal", but I know that God is walking us through. I will continue to pray for you as you walk this road of greif.

Laura said...

Praying for you...so hard to squeeze into this new normal. So painful at times. I think of you often.

Sheryl said...

Still praying in Michigan and I commit to being faithful to doing so, until.....

Sheryl

Anonymous said...

God brought you to mind many times today and I said a prayer each time! I will continue to lift you to Him!

JennyWho said...

Kristy,

Hang in there. This stage may take a while. We are all praying for you-

J. in OH

Yvette said...

Kristy,

I love seeing all of the pictures of the boys you've recently posted, they are precious. Try to stay busy, even if it's attempting to organize, that's what I TRY to do most of the time, but I know how easy that can be to say but hard to do, anything and everything can bring the memories of our precious babies which is so bittersweet. I'm still praying for you sweet friend, we're all in this together!

Love, Yvette
www.tristanasher.blogspot.com

Suzie said...

please know that I am praying for you in overtime right now. And know that I am here, even if it is just for a shoulder to cry on. Love ya!

Emily said...

praying for you, sweet friend!

The Pittsburgh Hites said...

Just catching up today, first time i've really been online since last week, but just wanted to stop and say hi. I LOVE the pictures from Evie's birthday party, Maggie had a blast as well! She now calls herself a "REAL CHEFFER" since she got that hat!
I also love the pictures of Luke at Powerzone weekend. The kids all look like they had a GREAT time praising God(and taking over the church)
We stopped at Cracker Barrel today after my weekly appt. and I thought of you as we were leaving. There were Asher cookies on the shelf, and it just caught my eye and made me smile. Funny how just seeing our children's names in a different place can make us stop and smile? I just wanted to share! I'm thinking of you and praying you were lifted up this week. Let me know if there is anything I can help with!
Love, Ginger

Laurie in Ca. said...

Praying for you Kristy and asking the Lord to lift you up. I am so sorry that there is nothing I can do to help you, but please know I think of you and your boys each day and ask for peace and joy for you. It may take time, but I know in time it will be within reach sweetie.

Laurie in Ca.