Friday, April 11, 2008

Thank you God for rainbows!

Today has been a weird day for me. Almost like I have a cloud hanging over me. I have been having a bit of trouble sleeping at night as my mind races the moment I have a free moment and since shower time and bedtime are basically my only alone time, bedtime has become frustrating for me. I want to sleep but I also need time to reflect and remember Isaac and Asher. I need time to talk to God and pray. Our power went out this afternoon for like the millionth time this month (and that was actually one of the bills I remembered to pay last month). We had to go out to get dinner as it as pretty dark in the house and we didn't want to keep opening the refrigerator as we didn't know how long the power would remain out. So we ran to get dinner and then I dropped Howard and Ben off at home so Luke and I could get to rehearsal for this weekend's church service. My whole day seemed like one big hurried fog. I am not sure I had a clear thought all day.

Tonight as I drove to church for PowerZone rehearsal it was storming like crazy. The rain was beating down and lightning flashed in the sky. I have always been afraid of storms. In 1985 we had a horrible tornado hit our area and I remember that day in May so vividly. Thankfully our family came out of it untouched but seeing the destruction all around is something I will never forget. Since that day storms make me very uneasy. So, as I drove I began to get this uneasy feeling. Luke was sleeping peacefully in the backseat and I had music playing and was trying to connect with God.

As I drove, my mind raced. I try every day to relive the days that Isaac and Asher were born so as not to forget even a tiny detail. I began thinking of the glorious day that God gave Asher to us. Though it was only for a short time it was the most amazing day of my life. A day filled with peace and love. A deeper love than I had ever known and peace like a warm fuzzy blanket. I prayed for God to help me to feel that peace again at that moment. Just then as I looked across the town of Edinboro and a rainbow appeared. I am not talking like a little piece of a rainbow, I saw a full arch in vibrant colors. And peace washed over me.

I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. - Genesis 9:13

What an amazing gift a rainbow is. It is such a sign of hope and peace. It amazes me that there are people who can deny that God exists after seeing the beauty of something like a rainbow. It is so much more than a spectrum of light. It is a promise. The day we left the hospital after Isaac died we were so comforted when God put a rainbow in the sky. I am confident he does this JUST for me. :-) I am just so thankful that my God knows what I need at the exact moment I need it and he ALWAYS provides. I see Isaac and Asher that way, as rainbows. The beauty in the midst of the rain. God brings rain into our lives at times but the rainbows shine so brightly they almost make you forget about the rain. We have certainly had some rain lately but I cannot imagine more radiant rainbows than our little boys! Thank you God for rainbows! Thank you for your promise!

13 comments:

Chrissy said...

I was driving this early evening w/ Mya and the rain was coming down while the sun was shinning...we looked and looked for a rainbow thinking that there would have been one...but there wasn't...not in Pittsburgh! Now I know why! Cause it was too busy shining brightly in Erie instead! So thankful that you got what you needed at the moment you needed it. Thinking of you daily. Love you Kristy!

Suzie said...

That is so amazing. I am so happy that it lifted you up in your time of need. I am so happy that you recieved this gift of peace today. I know you have been needing this. God bless you! And again, good luck on sunday with the program. I will be thinking of you.

Zac and Jenny said...

What a wonderful experience! I'm glad you received the rainbow just when you needed it!

-Jenny

Kim said...

You are still in my prayers. It is so great to read your posts. You are amazing and it's uplifting to see you on the road you're on.
Hang in there.
Kim

TNKerry said...

That was beautiful. We have dandelions in our backyard right now and every time I see them I think of you - now when I see a rainbow I will look at it as a promise - I like that.

Christa said...

What a beautiful experience! :)

Our power was out too (for the millionth time in the past couple months). When I called Penelec they told me that "a pole is on fire"

Wanted you to know you are still in our prayers. I read everyday. :)

The VW's said...

WOW! Tears are flowing! THANKYOU LORD for supplying! God is always there, but isn't it wonderful when He shows us such a clear sign?!

Thankyou for sharing your insights and story! You are such a blessing to many! May God continue to show you His mercy and peace each and every day! God Bless You!

Rebecca said...

Thank you God for rainbows!

Kenzie said...

Kristy-

So thankful for God's constant reminders of His love and protection, even in the rain! Continuing to pray for you and your family of boys!

Love lots,
Kenzie

msharae said...

I'm praying for your big PowerZone day tomorrow!

I pray that God uses the kids to totally knock the socks off of Big Church. :) I pray that the kids are a big challenge and a big blessing!

Kim (marygracesummons.blogspot.com) said...

Kristy,
I am so glad God gives us things like rainbows just the time we feel desperate for signs. I am glad he blessed you with that. I continue to think about you daily and lift you up in prayer.
With love,
Kim

Lindsay K. said...

I saw that rainbow too - it was beautiful. Thank you for sharing :) You are an inspiration in so many ways.

Jane-Jane said...

interesting that you should mention the storm in May of 1985...I grew up in NE Ohio, our house was within 1/2 mile away of the destruction. That Friday, May 31st, 1985 at 6:40 pm will forever be etched in my mind too.

I'm still praying for your family. Praise God for His comfort.